MIXED FEELINGS ZINE PREVIEW
"Mixed Feelings" is a poetry and mixed media zine which explores the existential conscious and subconscious. Conflicting and intense feelings, I attempt to transcend conventional representations of hysteria. The zine will include illustrations, photography, poetry, and 4 short films by utilising QR codes for an immersive experience. Digital access to the zine will be available at a later date.
how does it feel now the sun is gone
​how does it feel now the sun is gone?
the birds stopped singing.
how does it feel now the sun is gone?
it started raining,
hailing and whistling wind bashing on my windows
branches breaking
so sad they thought they had time to grow,
now the sun is gone they must take it slow,
now the sun is gone I think it's time I go.
how does it feel now the sun is gone?
radiating warm waves over my body.
now the sun is gone i'm cold again,
now the sun is gone i'm alone again.
now the sun is gone my skin stopped burning,
red hot from its touch
leaving traces, sizzling impressions of its hope
sick to my stomach i may choke.
too bad, I guess we should have never spoke.
now the sun is gone, my heart is broke.
the sun is gone, but you’ve still got heatstroke.
the damage is done.
the sun is too strong.
how do you feel now that it's gone?
17th May 2021 02:20am
already dead
everybody in my ear;
"the world is falling through"
and all i'm trying to do is persevere,
do they know?
their warnings fall insincere.
if only they knew i no longer care,
gleefully i'll follow the hare,
ignore my heart's despair,
i'll paint the roses red,
i'll sleep in the right bed,
because if you look down the rabbit hole
you'll find me there, already dead.
21st May 2022 08:08am
hearsay
​he said
i'm always playing with fire
i said
i'm always on fire
a town that never stopped burning under ground
smoke signals for lost souls
a fire for cold hands to gather
too close and you'll burn
too long and there's no return
he said
i look so happy when i tell the truth
he laughed and said i'm very curious
i'm always playing with fire
he said
i said
i'm always on fire
2nd November 2020 02:07am
childs play
Playing dead,
staying high,
just enough
to feel alright
playing dead,
staying high,
oh the secrets
i keep at night.
playing dead,
staying high,
living my day
by a promised lie;
if I hold on tight,
enjoy the ride,
every night, maybe i won't cry.
each month, i wont think of ways to die.
playing dead,
staying high,
not enough
to feel alright.
19th July 2021 18:41am
